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Mental Warfare
The war within ourselves is the biggest battle we will ever fight. Facing our self doubt, fears of loneliness, failures, rejection, truamas, tragedies and thoughts of death. The complexity of our minds can be another version of prision time. Follow kenyattas journeyty of mental illness to mental wellness. A story of healing, life, love and…
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Antidepressing me naturally
This is suicide prevention month. Many of us who have suicide ideation know it’s a struggle, that we deal with continuously, mabey even attempted. As a survivor of truama and abuse I know this originates from the lies we have been told and believed; Feelings of worthlessness, rejection, triggers from trauma we have experienced, isolation,…
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Sleepless nights of terror
I’ve been having lucid dreams and sleep paralysis since I was a teen, that lessened as an adult, until I married into abuse I had survived as a child. Normally insomnia is the battle. Last night before bed, I stood before my vision board and prayed. I was in mild distress, but I felt ok.…
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When we’re hurting
I woke up this morning paralyzed by pain. I had no desire to move, but my will isn’t connected to my brain. So I pushed through until I felt the strength to move again. Being a woman of faith, I already knew what to do. Prayer was my Starter and praise was my fuel. I…
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When the scars reopen
On my journey of spirituality and healing, I have setbacks and I relapse. The experiences of truama take me all the way under. Triggers usually come from within my own circle of friends and family. Those closest to us, have the advantage of hurting us the most. I left my abuser over a year ago,…
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Rising up out of the dirt of hurt
Waking up with joy and hope is my new normal and never gets old. I’m eager and excited to start the day, because I know I am healing and growing stronger in it. I start planning a day ahead, what I will do tomorrow, expecting to live life facing forward, rising up outta my sorrows.…
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Trust the process
“The pain is there to awaken you, not kill you” People quitting on you, should never be the death of you. Personal growth is sometimes painful. It’s a pruning process many of us go through. Self care and self reflection is key. Detoxing from poisonous people is a big step towards clarity and healing. Keep…
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It gets better
I use to believe in order to cope, I needed a substance in my body other than hope. Drugs and alcohol. These days I choose to worship my worries and aches away. Something about praise elevates me beyond my problems. A different way of numbing the pain. My belief and faith is healing me inwardly.…
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Winning the battles of depression
Some days it takes everything in me to put one foot in front of the other, I finally get going and you come along and trip me up. Now I’m just sitting here struggling in a puddle of pain and tears to get back up. That’s what depression is. A stumbling block of pain and…
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David’s daughter
This scripture, In this moment is everything. King David was a true poet and faithful lover of God. His battles were as mine, inwardly and outwardly. I’m inspired more than ever to carry on. I started writing a book of devotions for those struggling with depression and grief. I titled it “David’s daughter”. I was…
