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It gets better
I use to believe in order to cope, I needed a substance in my body other than hope. Drugs and alcohol. These days I choose to worship my worries and aches away. Something about praise elevates me beyond my problems. A different way of numbing the pain. My belief and faith is healing me inwardly.…
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Winning the battles of depression
Some days it takes everything in me to put one foot in front of the other, I finally get going and you come along and trip me up. Now I’m just sitting here struggling in a puddle of pain and tears to get back up. That’s what depression is. A stumbling block of pain and…
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David’s daughter
This scripture, In this moment is everything. King David was a true poet and faithful lover of God. His battles were as mine, inwardly and outwardly. I’m inspired more than ever to carry on. I started writing a book of devotions for those struggling with depression and grief. I titled it “David’s daughter”. I was…
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A reflection Into the depths and darkness of my depression
#depression #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthawareness #healingisaprocess #faith #survivor #suicideprevention #dontgiveup Today is one of those days, I woke up and wanted to give up. See the few people in my life, don’t really give a damn. One day just drags into the next, I’m doing my best. Lately my best hasn’t been good enough. The struggles of…
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The Miracle of MaryJane
#Marijuana #legalizeweed #cannabis #medicalmedicine #anxietyrelief #antidepressant #antipsychotic #suicideprevention “I never wanted to die when I was high” For those suffering from various forms of anxiety, ptsd to bipolar, depression and all the other diagnosis in between; Who are tired of being limited by traditional drugs that leaving you feeling empty and offer little relief this…
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The silent thief
Depression is a silent thief that robs you of your joy, happiness and peace. If left untreated it becomes a silent killer. Destroying relationships, careers, dreams and eventually the host.Each year 30,000 lose their life to suicide. Depression is the equivalent to a virus invading the body. Toxic thoughts that dim the light of hope…
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Living beyond abuse
The blows to my heat hurt longer than the ones to my body. The after shocks ripple through me and effect those who love me. The promises were unfulfilled, but the threats were kept. The love was a lie, but the pain is real. When we leave our abuser there are consequences and sacrifices we…
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D-Day…the day “I do” died
My experience with marriage and divorce has been a hellish nightmare, a horror film that I had to end. Im rolling the credits on this day. I stood there alone and the attorney stood between us, as we waited for the judge to sign off on ending us. Neither was present when we said I…
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Coming out of Christy
Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken. — Oscar Wilde. I’m a 42 y/o divorcee, writer, author, mother of three boys 12, 2 and 19. A survivor of abuse and trauma. Diagnosed bipolar at 26 with the later addition of BPD, PTSD and major depression. The fact that I’m alive to tell the story is…
