Hi,
It’s ya girl Christy. Who still hasn’t caved into loneliness and settled for whomever she can attract.
My mental health is the biggest determining factor, the trauma I’ve endured has left lasting scars that lay beneath the beauty men seek.
I am now 46 and by society’s standards, I am in a category of hopeless women who have to accept the bare minimum regardless if the man does not truly love them. I, on the other hand, serve a God who shows me his love is enough.
The right mate is coming to me in his divine timing who will know how to love me correctly. That said, giving a guy a chance has been less than disappointing.
Most of them lack sincerity and depth, the feeble attempts at getting to know me are guided solely through technology instead of an in-person interaction.
Yet people fail to see that emotionally connecting can be just as fatal by pulling a person into a false sense of security, believing something real will transpire only to have it fall apart. Seeking true love is considered a fairytale and people in general have become lazy, letting their hearts lack the energy to build something beautiful, fulfilling, and lasting.
It will take a Godsent man to face my challenges with me, to embrace the inner beauty as I continue to tame the beast. Instead of entertaining multiple men, I will wait for him and enjoy this time of singlehood until then.
I am every woman and unique at the same time.
A mixed breed, a rare find.
Someone beautiful that bloomed from mud and dirt.
A lotus flower.
Authentic women are different and resilient. They don’t need a man to gas them up momentarily for a joy ride to leave on empty. Excuse the hell out of you; there was a full tank before you drove off half-cocked, professing to be everything I could want and ever need. We both became high off the energy, but I will not, I cannot let you deplete me.
Sincerely Christy.
Author Christy Angelette 
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