Author Christy Angelette

This blog was created and based on mental health, so I decided to get back to reporting the journey of managing mines. I am currently growing and implanted in the stage of self-awareness and healing. There is no doubt that trauma and genetics have altered my life, perception, and emotional development leaving me with visible and invisible scars. The acceptance of it has already occurred. Thanks in part to the political poop of 2020 my anxiety has increased and probably yours. Being sheltered with people and situations that triggered my trauma lead to a relapse and a need for a more in-depth treatment. Thanks to a supportive family member and mental health mentor, I recently added EMDR to my list of therapies. Lean into the story as I tell you more of my discovery. As a fan of the television series, “Grey’s Anatomy.” I had already seen an episode about this and assumed it was fiction until I was referred to a Doctor/therapist who specializes in it. I currently have multiple therapeutic-type sessions in rotation. Sounds extreme, but the circumstances of life lately have been as such. Self-awareness and Self-reflection is the gift that keeps on giving. Being able to see yourself as others see you, whether it be an angry manic depressive state or the shy weird intellectual introvert. An aura surrounds me showing I’ve encountered some trauma and barely survived. I have seen what it’s like to experience me, sometimes by dissociation. An out-of-body experience that I will also be exploring through my current book in progress as a mental illness. One of my mental health reads is an audible book titled, “cleaning up your mental mess “by Dr. Caroline Leaf. In this book, she breaks down five steps to manage your mind and establish a healthier thought process. I tend to overthink, overreact and assume the worst. Taking back control of my brain has truly been a journey, the blessing in this is seeing the fruit of my labor and God’s favor. Having faith gave me hope, having hope gave me patience, having patience gave me peace. So far I have only had one EMDR session and prep work. I felt different afterward, in sensory overload. small forgotten memories resurfaced with flooding feelings. This treatment involves new learning, enhanced information processing, and the development of cognitive insight. I will be processing past events, current circumstances that elicit distress, and future events. Conceptualizing and redefining how I see myself. A revolutionary treatment that was never offered to me until now. A prescription and pills were the most recommended. Placing a bandaid over the root of the problem is the cure-all of Modern medicine.

Exercise is still an essential part of the process in maintaining my mental and physical health. As a former peer support, I encouraged the same for my clients. During depressive states and down days, I think and barely move. Once I am able to clear the cob webs from my mind, the reboot of yoga, cardio and walking begins. It has been exhilarating to be moving again; considering six months ago, I could barely walk without pain and felt as if my legs would collapse underneath me. It was a physical and mental condition at play simultaneously, the irony of life. I am still in pursuit of a career in writing as I heal and work on completing my book. This peek into my mental health journey will be more revealing within the pages of the sequel. Even though it’s hard for most to see and comprehend, there is a lot going on with me beyond the surface. There is inner growth, renewal, a spiritual evolution, too much to be consumed in one reading. Stay tuned if your interested or can relate to my mental passages, so much deception, chaos, and confusion going on within this world and often times within ourselves. Until the last breath, the journey continues.