Every day I wake up and wonder when I’ll start living. Negotiating with my inner self to not jump off the cliff into the abyss of hopelessness. In my present season of growth, I’m fighting to live and not just exist. I imagine my life is a movie, the angels are watching, and anticipating my moves, hoping I will continue on this journey and win. I enjoy being outside, sitting amongst nature and trees, soaking up the sun, and feeling the breeze. I recharge the energy that’s been depleted. My soul knows it’s in the very presence of God, my version of the garden. In those moments I become Eve and allow God to pour into me. It’s the very first thing I do upon awakening. The other day as I sat there peacefully, I observed a turtle passing her eggs into the ground, I watched in awe as she completed the process and buried them there. This moment felt significant and I am still soul-searching to grasp the deepest meaning. You see once the mother delivers her eggs, she leaves to never return to them. I carry an insurmountable weight of pain that aches to be released, to be buried so I can break free; Make room for the conception and delivery of God’s promise to me. Love, peace, healing, purpose, and prosperity.
“When I feel down I look up!” FAITH lifts my spirit.
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.
Romans 8:18-21 NIV
Author Christy Angelette 
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