In the beginning they didn’t know what was wrong with me, never dug deep enough into my life or mind to get to the root of the problems I was experiencing. They began treating the diagnosis through trial and error instead. I went through years of pills, alcohol and drugs that only numbed my mind and soul to pain. Triggers and abuse would cause it to resurface and I would explode like a volcano. It wasn’t until I faced and acknowledge the trauma that I started to heal. I’m currently reading a book Called “Emotionally healthy spirituality” this particular book has opened my eyes to take a deeper look into my childhood, my parents and grandparents up bringing as well, to break down the geneology of destructive unhealthy emotional, behavioral and relational patterns that I have subconsciously carried into my adult life and relationships. It’s up to us to go deeper within ourselves and get to the underlying source of our mental health problems. There is no cure that can be found in a prescription bottle. Since I’ve embarked on this journey and started peeling back the layers of my trauma, I better know the woman I am and becoming. I’m not defective or broken. I had a hole in my soul that needed to be filled with Gods love, self love and heal. In deepening my relationship with God, I tapped into my inner strength and discovered my purpose. This path has set me free to grow beyond the diagnosis, to live and be authentically non apologetically me.
Author Christy Angelette 