Due to trauma, I can barely speak without stuttering, yet I believe my voice will be heard and understood by many. My writing is just the beginning. I have no idea what beautiful relational love can be, but I know God has chosen someone who does for me. I have no clue what true friendship is like, yet I have no doubt one day, I will find out. I was told I should have never been born. My self-worth was shattered before I knew what self-esteem was, or my body had fully matured. God has always been the light in the darkness of my despair before I realized he cared and was there. His hands were wrapped around my heart and soul. It was his love that gave me the strenght to carry on when death was more desirable than living. Whenever I need to be reminded of how loved I am, I open up my bible and read. I’m more spiritual than religious. Looking into the mirror, I can’t help but believe in God, seeing beauty and vitality in a woman who not so long ago was frail and dying; It’s another testament to his glory and the power of faith in my story. God created me in heavenly realms and I am his angel whom he chose to walk this earth for more than the experience of suffering. I am a vision to behold, that most are blind to, unaware of my presence, but will indeed eventually see. An awakening is occurring in me.
Author Christy Angelette 