Author Christy Angelette

This is suicide prevention month. Many of us who have suicide ideation know it’s a struggle, that we deal with continuously, mabey even attempted. As a survivor of truama and abuse I know this originates from the lies we have been told and believed; Feelings of worthlessness, rejection, triggers from trauma we have experienced, isolation, and living with no purpose can make life seem meaningless to unbearable. I have been there and revisited, finally deciding I wanted to live and heal despite the tradgies and feelings of not belonging here. I started this journey of self discovery and healing by listening to others that had successfully overcome their own. Hearing spiritual, motivational speakers on repeat. Inspired and encouraged me.

I started Reading self help books regarding the same manner and applying it to my reality. Writing down positive affirmations daily. Speaking them over myself, I begin to believe in the “power of I am.” Renewing my mind and strengthening my spirit was key. In this I was able to rise up out of a toxic environment that was stifling and contributing to killing me from within. Once I added a routine of regular exercise beginning with walking my mental health took a turn for the better along with my physical health. I have an outward glow, the body I’ve always wanted. To my surprise while I was firming and working out my mind, my body was doing the same, getting better with time. I highly recommend finding out what best suits you. Whether it be walking, jogging, yoga, bicycle riding or zumba. It all has the same effects of naturally boosting your brains feel good hormones called serotonin. Allowing your body to soak up the sun, fresh air and being one with nature initself is uplifting.

I am no doctor, just a person who has lived with a diagnosis of mental illness for almost 2 decades. I’ve tried almost every pharmaceutical therapy. Learning what works best for me. Most of the prescribed medications had unwanted side effects leaving me lethargic, mentally foggy or worse manic and unbalanced, some even caused me brain pain, like having a shocking sensation on repeat in my head. A year ago I gave them up. Practicing yoga, meditation and binural beats while I sleep. Recently needing a bit more, due to emotional triggers, social anxiety and PTSD being more than I can handle. I researched these herbal medications and I have found them to give me that extra support I needed. They work naturally with my body. One helps with insomnia and anxiety. The other I take during the day helps with my mood and anxiety, naturally boosting my serotonin. So far, so good. You can read more about these online and buy them at your local Walmart. disclaimer: I am not telling you to stop taking any prescribed medication without discussing it with your doctor. I’m only explaining what I’m doing for me. There is no shame or stigma to those who take them and feel better. Do what’s best for you!

Lastly discovering your purpose can make life a lot sweeter. Giving you a natural high daily. Whatever your good at, gifted at doing or generally love to do, is a good indication your meant to live life doing it and should get paid for it. Keeping in mind whatever it may be, will take time, work and effort, believing in yourself and changing negative ways of thinking, Serve others in need develops an attitude of gratitude. Starting with being thankful for the little things will help you grow spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I’ve come so far, yet I’m still traveling this sometimes uphill road of healing and recovery. Refusing to give up, these days when I get tired of fighting, I have learned to rest, let go and let God. I find restoration in prayer and praise. I am expecting great things in the forecast of my life. Now Knowing If I keep moving forward, it gets better. Some days are bad, and some have been great! In death there is only darkness. Let’s choose to keep going and walking towards the light of living a better brighter life.